moron!

Some moronic things I've done lately that have been bothering me:

1. Accidently reformated my camera card (while showing my mom how to do it on her almost identical camera) with all of my pictures since I've been home. Mainly, Josh and Aca Deca kids escapades. I was the only one with the camera. Moron!

2. Left my $100 parka at the Oxnard High School Pool this last year, so when I come back looking for it this summer... it's gone. It's been stolen. Great. Moron!

3. Messed up the IPAP class so no one wants to take it... didn't research enough. Moron! (At least, I feel like one.)


So what's been up lately? Let's see... Issues. Not all bad.

Issue Number One: I want to lose weight. I'd love to be a lot thinner. But I don't want to stop eating, and I don't want to have to forever be like 'oh, i can't eat that' etc. Because anything I start to do to lose weight I have to continue doing forever in order to keep the weight off and actually lose weight. Yay. So I don't want to stop eating or drastically change my eating habits (no fast food, less crappy food could be in order). And then I should excercise, but I can't swim at my pool because of the stupid kids and the pool configuration, and I have been kind of sick, so running hasn't been my best option. Plus, I hate it when people see me runnning, even if I don't know them. Or something like that. So my weight and appearance issues have been vexing me greatly. Yay.

Issue Number Two: Things I want to do. I want to take my Clinical Nutrition and EH classes. But I also want to be fluent in spanish one day, so I want to start taking classes in college, or figure out some other way to learn a language. I want to be able to speak it and read it and go from there. What else do I want to do? Let's say this issue relates to school. I want to get a job. I want to volunteer more. I want to find a best friend. I want to find some clubs and team-atmosphery things to do. I want to join a club/sport so I can stay in shape. I want to take a glaze workshop. I want my apartment people to work out and for us all to get along (which we should.) But the other things I can and will have to do something about. So much to do!

Issue Number Three: Not enough time in the day. I work a lot. I want to see my grandparents. Gillian is in town again, as will be Cris and Malou shortly. So I want to hang with them. I have to go to Cingular to get my phone fixed... it's dying. It won't let me charge it (wtf?). I need to go to homedepot and start working on the backyard. I need to buy knitting stuff. That's the other issue! I need to do a lot of things... lots of planning of time. Or something like that. And I need to be around somewhat to be online. And not disappoint thomas. hmm.

Issue Number Four: Things I want to do THIS summer. Knit myself a shawl (but maybe not... would I use it? Isn't it a lot of work? I don't know...) Knit Hubert's scarf. Maybe start something for Sara (should I?). Read all my books (and I have a lot). Clean my room. Update my clothes (ie... going bargin shopping all over and getting nice clothes... so I don't just wear t-shirts all the time.) But I can't update my clothes until I lose weight so that way I will look ok.

Issue Number Five: Messy room. Need to find things for room next year. 'nough said. Should sleep soon. Or read before sleep. Should I go get stuff for knitting? Should I make that shawl, or simply do the scarfs? Oy. Decisions, decisions. It'd be really pretty... I should try.

Issue Number Six: I need to not spend money. But I need to get things. Eventually a Dodger shirt. Updated clothes. I really want a pair of Chaco's. Knitting stuff. Yarn isn't that cheap, keep in mind. And I really want some new music... let's say, Cold Play, more Muse, Jason Mraz... etc. I need some new music. I'm tired of what I have. But what do I get? What sounds good? How can I not pay billions of bucks? Need to save money. Luckily... dad said I don't need to pay for my gas. Mom said I do. $20 a week! We'll see.